Man losing stuff when you have ADHD is the worst. Stuff just like… vanishes. People will ask: when did you last have it? Well I don’t know dude. I just know it exists and I don’t know where it is currently doing that.
I will literally be holding a thing and then I will suddenly no longer be holding that thing
It is 2019 and I’m STILL thinking about how no one could have played Peeta Mellark better than Josh Huterchson did and how he deserved so much more recognition for his performance of hijacked peeta in Mockingjay part one and two.
I just wonder sometimes how stupid people are about smoking. Here I am, in the living room, my sister who is 21 (turning 22 this year) smoking since she was 17/18 and everytime I tell her “ Smoking is bad for your health.” she goes. “ Don’t be so annoying. I’ll die anyway.” . Yes. True. You will die anyway. But think like this: 25, you still smoke your problems away with that disgusting air in your lungs but as someone invites you on a hike, you hve trouble catching your breath. At the age of 30 you smoke and you have finally decided that smoking is your everyday habit. Still beautiful, still gorgeous round eyes but soon at 35-40 wrinkles start to show and your skin starts to hang from your face, pale. Your kids avoid you because they hate the smell of tobacco on you instead of your perfume. And soon as you age you caugh and caugh and you barely catch a breath by walking a few stairs up and when finally that time comes and you lay in bed and water starts to fill your lungs and you can’t breathe and you can’t move and people keep changing your diapers at 70 years old and all you wish is this to all be over but it’s not. It keeps being like this and it hurts everytime you breathe and you just lay there thinking what have you done so wrongly about your life that God decided to punish you. Well…the answer is you didn’t give a damn about your health and this is where everything leads you to. Early death, agony and regret. And the saddest part is the person (nonsmoker) who you have been smoking around all your life, not giving a damn about him/her…she/he had lung cancer and died before you did. Because as stupid and paranoic as it sounds, smoking doesn’t just influence your health…it influences others. And as you pull that smoke in your lungs at 25, and breathe it out with the person next to you. She/he coughs. But you roll your eyes because you find it annoying. But a few years later that person could have just the same death as you can. Early, agony and suffer. But remember the words you speak. “I’ll die anyway.” , “ You only have one life.” , “ I’ll enjoy my life now before I can’t anymore.” - “I don’t care.” but what do you care about others. They are just annoying, right?
